Today was supposed to be the day that we left for China.
I could hardly concentrate on anything all day long. I felt like I was in a straitjacket, suffocating...work just seemed utterly pointless.
It made matters even worse when people who hadn't heard of the delay just happened to pick today to ask when we were going to bring home our little girl. It was like rubbing salt in a fresh wound. It completely sucked. I couldn't figure out if I wanted to scream or cry or do something more drastic.
I'm feeling so helpless and frustrated right now. I just can't wait for this to all be resolved but at the moment I have never felt more a mess or physically farther away from Mali. I don't know what to do with myself.
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The time will come, I promise! As unbelievable as it sounds I can tell you that this wait will truley melt away into ancient history as soon as you get your hands on her. I know...you just have to get your hands on her!!This journey is part of her story and the story of how you became a family-embrace that so you can share it with her someday. She will know she was so loved, even if it was from miles away. The pain and heartache makes the day you get to hold her in your arms all the more special-I promise!! Your day WILL come!!
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